worst christmas ever
bah humbug.. i was feeling unfestive all this year.. and this christmas jsut compounded the disappointment. we had an early xmas cos jo is going away tommolo morning.. it didnt go that great really. for some reason i think that if i spend more time, money and thought on a gift that it will somehow be more liked.. and that maybe ill get gifts with as much of those things.. but it never works out. im shopping more than ever.. and buying exponentially more expensive gifts.. all of which my parents dont like and jsut go "oh .. thats uh .. nice" before discarding it to some dusty cupboard and never looking at it again. i could totally buy them a yacht or something and they would just smile politely.

according to my magic 8ball, this was the worst christmas ever.. and also the 8ball was he best gift i got this year. and its like cool and all (thanks daphne) .. but when a $10 secret santa is your best gift of the year its a pretty lean year.

in other news: im starting to feel less angst and more apathy...*sigh*