arghh!!
*pulls out hair* =(

spent a lot of time last nite.. thinking and talking about where i am right now.. actually till the wee hours of the morning. i get frustrated so easily with life.. like i just go with the flow a bit.. but then get caught in a rip and i realise theres no safe way to go back. i got myself into a position where theres no winning move. and not just for me, i think everyones loses and i feel so bad about what ive done =( normally im so responsible, but every now and then i let my guard down... and pay for it for a long time.

i need some serious retail therapy... ive never maxed out my credit card before.. i wonder what that feels like?

in other news.. i need a hug but i dunno where to get one.. i think ill settle for a pikachu hug.


.. do do do.. also i went to see Love Actually.. its an incredible movie.. i recommend u go see it. itd be especially good to see with that special someone. im not really in the mood to write a review though.

.. also ive dropped a couple of kilos since NYE.. some of it cos of angst.. some cos ive only eaten 2 full meals since then. im just not hungry... dunno why, but ill eat tonite at tenny's bday, so thatll help i guess.